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It was hard to bear the hot weather like a sauna weather in Beijing,which could not obstuctingthe coming of the red whirlwind from North America.One of my friends told me that a lady who had married a gentleman nearly 20 years before their divorce,then she experienced a 100 days of love.She danced in a red yarn under the weather 20 degrees centigrade below zero.She released her feeling of a loud crashed and collapsed love.Her braveness was startling.
Ms.Belinda continued her road of love with honour permitting no turning back,though she had pain in love,and people called forth in her with a feeling of profound respect.With a complicated mood,I heared her voice:soft and sweet,like missing Miss Deng Lijun,the solo empress of the outstanding figure of our time.After a long talk,I was surprized that she was like a ocean of terrifying waves beating the shore under her mild outward appearance,but she contained enormours love capabilities which made people to sob once again.Woman could not be without love and she could not lose her spirit and herself.
"Ms.Belinda" meant the beautiful lady.She dreamt to become a beautiful lady forever.Recently she published a fiction-book entiled "A Chinese Corridor Bridge:Ms.Belinda's Love"---please brought away my love and tender regards,and drew the attentions of main mass mediums both at home and abroad.
1.I knew Mr.Lan Bing was my luck and misforture as well.We were like two children who should not fall in love with each other.We were struggling in an unfathomable dry well for 19 years. After our divorce with no marks of pain,I found that Mr.Lan Bing became the best of my dear ones
I knew Mr.Lan Bing while I was a young girl.I rewrote my first half of my life since then.My mind was full of the artless dreams of prince and princess.I became in intoxicated in yearning for unreality.There was only one row of single storey houses in the remote mountain.When the back window of my house was openned,I could touch the slope of a big rock.The kichen was too small that it was hard for me to turn about.My bedroom was only more than 10 square meters with no wash-room and bath-room attached.There was only one rock house was occupied by us.How beautiful it was!I never minded how hard our life was,but I was afraid of Mr.Lan Bing's hot-temper.Now I thought that perhaps we would not meet each other.Our meeting became our misforture.
Mr.Lan Bing seeked perfection and even not let small things out in our life.He nitpicked that the fresh which I bought was too fat,and the fragrant flowed-garlics were too thin.At first,I did not understand it.I was unnable to do the household duties well at first,but I wanted learning to do them well bit by bit.He gradually became to make a fuss over a trifle,frequently was furiously and threw all the things,which I bought not conforming to his will,into the dustbin.I bore them and was patiently waitng him to tide over the difficulty,but I could not trouble him.
Once I turned upside down the electric oven by carelessness.Mr.Lan Bing was furious unable to control himself,while he was sitting beside me.He waved his fists to pond on my face.It was the first time that I wanted to seperate from him.
I was sitting on a cold rock outside of my house,lookking back of our first sweet love and? was soft on hating Mr.Lan Bing.He was seeking the perfectness and the man thirsting for a better life! I was soft and hesitating.it was my first marriage and limitless treasured it.
In the year of 2000 we were in the resentment and reached North America from Shanghai passing through many different places.In fact we hoped that we would improve our relations through the changing of the invironment.Mr.Lan Bing was a man of great ability.We were not worried about our life at last.But my relations with Mr.Lan Bing did not lead onto the correct path.His morbid mad rashness which accumulated my scars became the killer of our marriage.
In early Spring of 2000,I was determined to divorce from Mr.Lan Bing.In that night,I brought a basin of warm water lightly to him and put his feet into the water quitely.And the past events came to my mind.My tears and warm water consoled his backs of the feet and Mr.Lan Bing embraced me with no words.Instantly,a kind of the feeling of dear ones which we never had before came into our hearts.I knew that the seperation made us to become dear ones to keep us thinking about each other.
The next day,Mr.Lan Bing got up earlier and piled up everything he would take away.As soon as I saw that he put the socks which were wore to the holes into his luggage,I bursted into cry.The socks were presented to him by me on Valentine Day of the first year of our meeting.I was afraid of being loneliness,but I extiguished the marriage by myself.
Mr.Lan Bing had gone and my heart was broken.Mr.Lan Bing's all good things were full of my mind.I was free again now.Why I had no relaxed feelings?
2.I Got Acquainted with Mr.Jack with True Love
During the days I left Mr.Lan Bing,I felt that I were took all the things out of my body and had pain in my heart.Many people struggled to survival after they had experienced pain.
I got acquainted with Mr.Jack accidentally during a performance.He touched my fingers with no intention.I lightly shrank back my fingers.He smiled towards me showing tender affection.He was a kind of the thick and broad man.
When the performance came to an end,he invited me to go for a walk.He said,"Look,how beautiful is the scenery at Earl Bales Park!Poeple should enjoy the forture as much as they like before their eyes and they would be no sorry for these.What would you say for that?"
I had nothing to say in reply.We were taking a leisure walk towards the Park right in front of us.Mr.Jack told me that he was a Tawainese and he took over the family business in Canada.He said to me,"Do you know all these,Ms.Belinda?The best ladies in the world are in China.I like the songs of Miss Deng Lichuan very much.Some people say that you are like her."
My heart beat like the small deers.It was the happiest day after my seperation from Mr.Lan Bing and we wrer standing shoulder to shoulder on the high slope of the hill in the Park along the path of the valley beside the Park.Beside the Don Valley to the park with a dense forest on the slope and the path was tortuous and zig-zagged.There was a youngster passionately in love with a neraby sweetheart and he was playing the guitar and sang with it for his beloved girl!
The wind was blowing.I did not know when Mr.Jack held my hand in his hand.We turned round to the valley in the south.The bright and night sky evening made my state of mind in especialy cheerfull mood.The wood railings in front of me made me to think of cow boys in the west and the horses.I thought that one day I could go round the world with my beloved man!
I told what I thought in my mind to Mr.Jack.I was surprized to know that Mr.Jack said to me,"You can realize it.I shall accompany you to go."
I turned my face red.I consciously now that I lost control.It was not proper at all to say my ideal of love to the man of my first time to meet him!
3.I Loveed Mr.Jack and Went into His Embrace.
Mr.Jack saw me to my door.After my parting from Mr.jack that evening,I did not know whether I was expecting his call.Anyway,I did not turn off my cell phone for the first time and cautiaously put it under my pillow and I could not have a sound sleep the whole night.
One dusk after one week,Mr.Jack came to my house.He was turning down steadly the window of his car and seeing me walking towards him.My tube-shaped skirt full of sprinkling red lotuses which were drawing his line of vision were attracting his eye-sight.He restrained his exciteness,but his brightness of the eye-sights could not cover up them and passed on that to me and I was confused by him.Mr.Jack rubbed my fingers with his right hand.He held me in his arms,but with no words on the whole way.
My love for Mr.Jack as if it was no reason.We began to sweet meetings and the suuferings of the night-fallings.We talked over telephone of our remembering to each other and when impulse came,we would like to meet each other at once.Mr.Jack told me that he began to go through the formalities for divorce from his wife one year ago,but he met many difficulties.
That was the reason why he could not love me at first.He told me,"You have nothing to do with my divorce.before that he is in the process of agreement with his wife. I think I would not destroy the completion of your marriage.If one day we would get married,I would bless you like blessing the treasure,not allowing you to get a slight of affection in all the details.Wait for me a little more time further,Ms.Belinda.I would leave my first night with you in the first day of my stainless status.
In order to speed up the process of divorce,Mr.Jack gave in greatly in economy.When Mr.Jack handled all his things and helped settle down his old mother and grown-up daughter which he carried on too much heavy duties.When the day he became free and came to me happily and at the same time he said to me in a troubled heart,"Ms.Belinda,I love my mother and daughter the most before we met. But now,I find that I love you.How good the God loves me!But I can not make you to live well.Would you like to marry me?"
When I rubbed lightly on his ached cervical vertebra and back,a strand of feeling sorry poured in from my heart.Love were filled full in my empty space of the heart.I was intoxicated in his arms.He was the true man that I longed for the day and night.He was an experienced and worldly-wide,steady and resolutely,fine and smooth,humour,modest and counteous man.I liked his pit-a-pat and strong palpitation.I also liked his breath,tender feeling and the colour of his skin.But I liked him more of trueness and responsibleness.After experiencing in gain colours of entice,great love and pains,we were more willing our love to be pure and sinerre.That night,I had a sound sleep in Mr.Jack's arms!The light rains after the beginning of Autumn beat the windows of his car.I came out of the shadow of Mr.Lan Bing's and welcame Mr.Jack's good-natured and steady love.
Love such changed rottenness into miraculousness which made us to become the angels of the opposite ones.I asked Mr.Jack frequently,"If we won't meet each other,what should we do?:"Mr.Jack smiled and said that I was stupid.Then,I asked him again,"Do you love me forever?"Mr.Jack smiled again and said,"How mentally deficient you are like all the ladies in love!"
I thought that I was swayed by consideration of loss and gain,when the lady felt happy!I was wholly changed by love,such a kind of mavellous material.I was like a young girl first awakening of love as if it was the first time and fell in true love and my heart was slaved tightly by Mr.Jack.
4. My one hundred-day love was died young with a loud crash.I was no tear this time.When I was dancing on the icy-snow,I told Mr.Jack in the Kingdom of Heaven that you would be at ease.Your Ms.Belinda would not be lonely again.I should be on the road of love again with your love.
It was getting colder and colder.Mr.Jack and I were full of etense emotion because of love which brought about our sexual life.Mr.Jack made me,an ordinary lady to possess the world and the revelry after lonelyness and helpless.He was the treasure in my life!We began to discuss our marriage after it was too dense to melt our love.I wanted Mr.Jack to give me a simple but strong wedding ceremany.Mr.Jack agreed and began busy to make all the arrangements like swalows carrying their bits of earth in their bills to build nests.One day,Mr.Jack and I passed by Rough Park in the east part of Toronto.His fingers were cooler with no vitality.I held Mr.Jack's hand as usual,but I felt some difference.I worried to ask him whether he felt uneasy.But Mr.Jack patted my face,comforted me and said to me,"It's all right.I have felt uneasy these days.May be I am tired!I'll see the doctor in a few days."Anyway,a kind of ominous feeling was spreading all over my heart.Mr.Jack said,"It doesn't matter.It worries my Belinda a lot."I unpeacefully begged him and said,"No, we? must go to see the doctor tomorrow."
It just answered the Chinese old saying,"Good time doesn't last long."Mr.Jack was checked out that he was suffering from the later period of cancer of liver.I was holding the Examination Report and wanted to cry but with no tears.My hands were trembling endlessly.It resented me and we only cared of our happiness.Why I did not paid attention to this period of his health?
Mr.Jack's illness was getting worse rapidly and I was following him closely and accompanying him.He was comforting me all along,stopping my crying and sadness.He said to me,"Ms.Belinda,you know how many people all the lives are with no love,but we have.How lucky we are!How you like the Royal Mountain when we reach Montreal!I am one of pious religionists because you are my the Holy Spirit.My heart worships you everyday.Ms.Belinda,agree with me that you must live in happiness,no matter what it is going to happen!"
How could I forget that!That was the last time that Mr.Jack drove me home from Montreal,an ancient city.Mr.Jack's right hand was holding tightly my left hand all along on the road.His life as back reckoning by time.We hoped that we would stay longer.Mr.Jack's hands had been warmer which gave me the confidence and vitality.But I saw now that his life was swallowing bit by bit by the destiny of the devil's talons.I was at a loss for what to do.The car was driving rapidly on the expressway.It turned a rapid corner.The car almost was running into a rock on the turning corner.Mr.Jack was frightened with a cold sweat.I was thinking that we would be together flying ashes and mouddering smoke!It would be better to seperate us!
Mr.Jack were gasing at me heavyheartedly with his eyes.He knew my thought idea.When the car was driving into thousand island£¬Kingston,Mr.Jack's cool hand was all along holding me tightly.While parking his car,Mr.Jack said to me with his tender love,"Ms.Belinda,you don't think irregularly.No matter what may happen,you must live in a good way."
Throughout that journey,the people we met on the way who admired surprisingly our deep love,but they did not know Mr.Jack would pass away shortly!
The past events could not think back,which would make people sadly and drearily.I clapped Mr.Jack's shoulder,allowed him to lie down comfortablely and tried my best to smile genuinnely.My dear,I was going to play the music of "No Snow-falling in Toronto Tonight" for you.
You do not know me???????????????????????? I know you nothing
Into the lobby???????????????????????????? We gaze at each other
Sit at the coffee table??????????????????? Lightly and leisurely
The waitress brings us two glasses of hot lemon water
Beautifully light yellow?????????????????? With a whill of delicate fragrance
Take a sip of it?????????????????????????? Gladdening the heart and refreshing the mind
Our sights meet once in a long while?????? With a smile of understanding like old friends? for many years
The bright sky in Qingdao????????????????? The rainy season in northern Tawain
Sow seeds in the north???????????????????? Harvest in the south
Patriarch free and at leisure??????????? Carefreely and leisurely take.the weak points
Cups brightly and the dry measures'shadow? Manage the hair in order
Is it a long time for your feeling???????? Let's review the scene,the lights and the feeling
Toronto is no snow-falling tonight and no drizzle in Shanghai
Let's sit at the coffee table
Shining with the youthful,lemon-yellow,graceful and light coffee colour table-cloth
Talk the heavy snow-falling in North America?? And the drizzle in the South of Yangtze River
Talk our ardent hearts
Heart-to-heart Talk??????????? And heart-to-heart talk ...
It is the midnight? The tea dried already?? The happiness is unfinished??? The idea is dense
Any more rewine??????????? What about that?
I was leaning close to Mr.Jack's hospital bed and thinking that he was all right in the trance of music.We went to that mottled path again and pushed open the door in olive-green which was a rich corner in scenary of old Montreal.The passerbys on the old streets,which deduced many stories of joys and sorrows,were in a hurry.But they would seperate us from the happiness of love.
Our love could not keep Mr.Jack alive.He passed away and took away the love to me as much as he ought to give me.He was loosening his hand with a grudging,but lacking of the strength.On seeing Mr.Jack's passing away,I had no cry because he did not like me to cry!It was a vast sheet of soughing in late Autumn on Lake Outaria.After burying Mr.Jack's body,I did not know where to go for my next station.On driving rapidly along the No.401 Expressway towards Quebec Province,The fallen leaves struggled flying in circkles which met my eyes on every side like our love in deep distress!Memory liked tide water gushing into my heart,which surbmerged my eyes and ran into my heart which recovered in happiness only this summer with pain.I could not stop my sorrowing heart.The car stoped at the parking lot and my tears fell like a rain.My tears suffered pain for my beloved Mr.Jackand and my love which came to a premature end with a loud crach.
When I was sad endlessly,I would hope to follow Mr.Jack to die.But I could not do that because I wanted to obey his words.Before his death,Mr.Jack was holding my hand tightly with all his strength and said to me,"Ms Belinda,you must promise me that after my death you will live well and find your price and marry him."Mr.Jack said this again and again.Rusttle-falling tears by instinct defied death to nod.But my dear Mr.Jack,I ran into your love by relying on the lot which brought us together and the good luck!You gave me the lot which brought us together,but your Ms.Belinda had no good luck!
Like the Siamese twins,we thought that we would never seperate,but the end of the world came so fast.After Mr.Jack's death for quite a long time,I was customarily turning on my cell phone in the midnights.As soon as the bell was ringing,I picked it up quickly,then it was deeply disppointed.I was uneasy,confused and heart-broken by Mr.Jack'shadow,breath and smile in the dreams from autumn to winter.I had been in the samsaras from pain to pain in the love of my life today.When I could not restrained my thinking of him,I found the warmth of the coming back to life in the music.I felt that in sudden that Mr.Jack had not passed away,went out to a faraway place on duty only and would be back soon.
I heard the sound of the footstps of Mr.Jack's in that snow-falling day.I got up from my warm quilt,then I put on the red yarn and was barely in the running in the icy-snow.The snow was melting into water by the warmth of my body,dropping from my fingers.I danced in the icy-snow my my holy and pure intention,sang in praising of the song of a black house yesterdayI said to Mr.Jack in the Kingdom of Heaven that Mr.Jack would be at ease.Your Ms.Belinda would not live alone.She would bring our love on the road for love again.
I woked up from my dream,but it was cool and refreshing.I did not know whether Mr.Zhuang Zhou dreamt the butterfly or the butterfly dreamt Mr.Zhuang Zhou.My dear Mr.Jack,if we would have lives again,I should wish you in good health forever,I should never get old and be your sweetheart in the midnights forever.We would hold a book jointly,fill the cups of wine and pour the tea cups and talk love.We should talk tirelessly,shouldn't we?
Postscript:
After Ms.Belinda's pain was over,encrouraged and helped by her friends,she finished her collection of photos.She would tell the people to come to realize a lady's feelings towards life and love with her trunk which was no one expressed to tell by the trunk till today,and explored the exit of common spirit of the people to seek in the nature by the beautiful trunk of a lady.Ms.Belinda started to write her Chinese-English autobiography fiction book "The Chinese Bridge •:Ms.Belinda's Love".There was a love story of a beautiful Oriental lady behind the naked dance on the icy-snow.